Yesterday, I attended a seminar in KL. 9am to 5pm... I am a bit late like..10 mins..

Seminar tu pasal "Dare to transform"... hmm... I've been advised by one of my good friend to attend...So...I went...What I learnt from the seminar basically, is not something new... What and how we see ourselves in the next 5 years from now, etc... You see.. Anybody can ask the same question and we have diffferent kind of answer towards it...

Most of the participants told that they'll gonna have a better life than now..like...own a bigger house, luxury cars, financially strong and all the great stuffs...

As for myself...I just said that...in all my life...I just want to have the life that I want..deep inside my heart...only ALLAH knows what is it..

There was a segment whereby all the participants been given a mirror each...and the lights was deemed..and we've been asked to look at the mirror for 20 mins.

During that 20 mins...I saw many type of reactions from all the participants in the room ... Ade yang diam, cry, smile , etc...

The thing is.. every day ... mmg la...I will look at the mirror...but I can't remember...when was the last time I talk to myself...So..when I spent that moment just with myself...The feeling was so deep...till I don't know..should I share it or keep it..

I have mix feelings...happy, sad, ashamed, pity, proud, regret..hmmm...tell me about it..

Then...after 20 mins..the speaker asked...everybody...how do we feel..and when my turn came, I just don't have much to tell...speechless I guess... But it was a magical moment which I realised that all this while, I forget to say sorry to myself and to say thanks as well...

I am sorry because I still not give the best shot in my life...and I want to thank myself for being healthy and strong to live till today despite all the challenges and obstacles that came through..

PD

Saturday...pg PD..dgn both of my family members...kat Teluk Kemang...best gak sbb tempat tu bz. Ramai org.. Byk aktiviti... but I tak involve in water activity ... Actually, it's not easy to stay close with water if you carry a camera or any electronic stuff...Tak nak amek risiko that will cause me run over budget...he he he

But I do snap some pics of the chicken that I marinated on Thursday... it turns out well after we grilled ...But blh di improve lagi..

Cuaca on Saturday tu panas but from petang Saturday till yesterday...sejuk...je...sbb Hujan....

So, x blh la nk ber-aktiviti ape pun... Plan nak naik banana boat pun...terpaksa la di lupakan...takpe la..Lenkali je la...bukan jauh pun...

Yang penting ..the kids had fun ... and we got to celebrate Mother's Day this year together...

I think ...it's never too late to wish happy mother's day to all my friends and family...

Chao...

Nicotine Addiction

Notice tak...pegi mane2 pun mesti jumpe smokers kan? Even kerajaan dah naik kan harga rokok..demand terhadap pasaran...tetap ade..malah makin menggalakkan lagi...Adakah sebab...bertambahnya bilangan perokok dari hari ke hari? Hmm....most of the mothers tak tau yang their son or daughter is a smoker...Sbb mostly, they need to sneak out of the house or keep it away from parents...But I object the idea by saying...teenagers are easily influenced by their teenage friend...ye ke camtu? It does not apply to all. Tgk jgk...wheel power tu...

Actually...they are not addicted to cigarette...They are just addicted to Nicotine.he he he...and what is Nicotine?

Nicotine is an addictive drug. It causes changes in the brain that make people want to use it more and more. In addition, addictive drugs cause unpleasant withdrawal symptoms. The good feelings that result when an addictive drug is present — and the bad feelings when it's absent — make breaking any addiction very difficult. Nicotine addiction has historically been one of the hardest addictions to break.

Now...let me share something.....

I have a male friend yang tak smoke even he hang out with smokers, friends who drink and do really wild stuff...He can hang out together but choose not to be like them... I knew him since 1990...till now..dari zaman sekolah ...zaman dia join underground muzik to punk ska.Humble je... .. Nothing has change him..Not even an inch...Dasyat kan? Nak displin kan diri for not being tergoda dgn benda2 yang melalaikan ni..hmmm...it's not gonna be that easy if U are different from the floor...and he is different...

Actually...I bukan nak cite pasal kawan ni sgt pun.The point here is.. .. Nak kuat kan diri ni...Bukan tanggungjawab org lain...diri sendiri yang kena jaga diri sendiri..

Pernah dgr tak...the greatest enemy in our life....is our own self ? I teringat cerita 1 of my cousin...Masa in the process to quit smoking ni....U are actually half normal jugak la sbb that's a habit that u practic for years....tapi..tak la sampai ting tong kan? But U mmg akan battle dgn diri sendiri la epecially bila U mimpi that U smoke but U dh actually successfully stop smoking within few months...part ni yang sakit sket tu...

Takpe...sabar tu penting...

And I pray to ALLAH that i could give the best example to my children as well...

p/s : berhenti je la smoking tu...bukan ade faedah pun. try to get help from the experts.if u can't do that alone.Asyik nak tunggu bulan Ramadhan baru nak buat azam pun payah gak..he he he...Siang puasa...malam dia lawan qada' hisap rokok pulak..hu hu hu hu.......part tu yang tak tahan nak gelak tu...

Powerful

Many things happened last week...Ntah la...If I could, I just want to forget but not forgiving...Not being cruel but it's just not right...

Ada orang yang suka take advantage over other people weaknesses... yang kesian tu... these type of people are among those who earn respect from public like ustaz, religous expert or officials, etc.... It's a norm when we see that people will easily buy their thoughts and advice due to their background and upbringing...Yela..they look confidence when they talk..Thus, not many will question as we may have a little knowledge in that particular area...

Suddenly today...I remember on one of the best quotes that I heard during a course that I attended in couple of years back...He told ....

"With a lot of knowledge ..it will make you Powerful...and to have a little knowledge means..it is Dangerous.."

trust me, we'll gonna face a lot of trouble if we ignore the fact that knowledge does play a big role in our life, everyday...

and I never forget that ...ever since..

Day 3

Finally....sampai la ke hari yang di tunggu2..

Last pic...is my auntie's family...since my parents could'nt make it ... they went all the way from Penang to show their support and love...touching kan? She even cried when she congratulated me after I went out from the graduation hall...with roses and lunch...Baik kan?...

Thanks to Syikin and Nurul too...Nurul is a final year student kat situ...So, she did a BIG favour when I was there...thanks again...

Cuaca on that day...agak panas jugak.....

It's been 3 years....sume nyer come in package... Between ..works, family, study,friends, etc..Seriously, it's not that easy......

But it's never too late either...

Hello

Lama giler tak update...sorry to those who waited .... I am still around...still rockin' ...he he he

Kalau la rumah...dah bersawang kan? Tak tahan gak when some of my friends keep reminding me to update...Bkn tak tahan ape...Tak tahan nak gelak kan diri sendiri...he he he...

Actually, I've been focusing on something else ...Try to finish reading on few books that I bought and some are from my father...Good excuse huh?

Anyway...thanks for supporting...I'll update some more...soon.

Day 2

Bangun je pagi...my auntie dah prepare breakfast pun..Lps mandi and makan...we lepak kt bangsal tepi umah dia ...sambil tgk laut....sambil sembang2 pasal many things...At that moment, everything that related to WORK matters memang dah totally gone from my head..tu yang best tu..

Then, we decided to go to Penang,,,by ferry. Since that day is not a public holiday, the que is shorter.. plus, less people...more relax, la ...

Normally, we use to visit Penang in group....(sebab nak pegi beraya)...ramai la yang konvoi...so, ade marshall tunjuk jalan, kan? ...but this time...nak cari tempat jual jeruk pun...boleh sesat tau...The place we are looking for is just on our right whereby, we've been searching at the left side over and over again...Nasib baik jumpe (thanks to my nephew... Doh a.k.a Firdaus)

Hot weather...blh pengsan la kalau tak tahan..nasib baik x pengsan...

Then, after the Penang journey completed , we headed to Alor Setar....but decided to proceed to Sintok eventually sebab I need to confirm on the stage photo arrangement for the next day...There are forms to fill & payment to make...

We reached Sintok around 5pm...and it was my first time to be in UUM main campus...

The area are so big...and peaceful...It's just perfect for student...Then, meet up with my cousin sister, Yon a.k.a Nurul...Accounting Final year student...Nasib baik gak dia ade...she show me around and help me managed the things needed for the day..